, Spenser Edward.
Alison McGhee (via beautiful-ambition)
Today I attended Great Eastern’s achiever’s day. It really made me reflect on so many things while I’ve been so detached from the insurance industry all these while.
I feel ashamed, frankly speaking, to have considered other career options without first giving it a shot as a full timer.
I was on track. Everything they mentioned… ‘I dont want to let my first 3 clients down, I need to sustain’, ‘If you quit soon enough you’d never know’
I was guilt stricken.
I seem to have forgotten the path I have chosen. Last holiday, I earned quite a decent pay for a diploma graduate, didnt I? All these while when I’m not working, the recurring income paid for my expenses, didn’t it? What did I have to do? Service a couple of claims, attend all compulsory meetings.
This is a noble job. I believe without the hospital plans I’ve sold, the 2 clients whom I’ve serviced would have been to the hospital having to pay for their bills from their pocket. Without my sale, some of my friends probably have drank their $100 away every month, spent it on some unnecessary items.
I became angry with myself, I got jealous of the progress of my peers in the corporate world. Those who signed on bought homes, the close ones in the aviation industries travelled the world getting paid a decent amount of salary.
I lost myself. I used to be nice to everyone, even those who take advantage of me, Karma will find its way. I shouldn’t be so narrow minded. I shouldn’t be angry at anyone or even pointing fingers.
I think I’m better than that. I envision myself running an agency, as a director.
Im not relating myself to any mediocore agents’ mindset. This is a self-sustaining career. If Im unhappy with the way I work, I change. If im unhappy with my salary, I work more.
‘The best way to predict your future is to create it’.
I just wanted to remind myself even if I fail, I can look back and say ‘I already gave it my best shot’